Splatters of Life♥

완전 피곤해!
시간이 없어요~
그래서 너무 싫어요!!
친구들이 만나고 싶어요!!!
보고 싶어요!!
시간 와 돈 있으면 한국어 배우고 싶어요!

어떻게요????

My internet is seriously killing me!! ahhh!!!
so slow and laggy =(( *sulk sulk*
seriously! things are not working well for me here!!
studies..workk! wahhh!! tired till drop dead can??
I really think that my body can like sprawl all over my floor when i reached home!
My hands and my leg are like ripping off mann!!
and to those who thinks that i earn big bucks shall go and bang their head to the wall!!
wad de?!?!? achibalan!!
=((

yeapyy..
2009 had just flew past us and believe it or not 2010 is here already~
I kinda like cannot believe it~ not how fast time had past but what had occured in that year of 2009 compared to noww~

I misses my E37B!
I have to admittt!!
2009 will be a "BOOHOO" for me if I do not have you guys!! seriously!!
You guys makes me realised something about me and makes me go crazierr..
and TO BRYAN GOH!! AND IF ANYONE THINK THAT THEY ARE CRAZYY, THEY SHOULD GO AND FIND YOU!!
COS I THINK THAT THEY CAN BE MORE CRAZY WITH YOU!! HAHHAHAHA!!
All I can remmeber now..is all the screamings we had not just in our classrooms but also..
hahhaha!! the other classes too!!
To my beloved E37B:
Let's meet up reall soon yeaaa??
let's go eat steamboat or maybee seafood again??
I kinda miss thatt!!
Thanks for standing by my side when I had my downs~
That means alot to me!! seriously~ Thanks=))
Hope that in this new year we will not drift apart but be close in some ways and let's be more crazy and lovely at the same time=))
"The 1st can never be replaced.."
and thanks for making that statement true to me=))

Looking back I am very very glad with the decision that I had made~
Be it right or wrongg~ stillll~
PROJECT H.O.P.E ESPECIALLY MY J.A.M!!!
I LOVE U PEEPS TILL I DONT KNOW WAD MANNN!!

SB-PS~I LOVE YOU PARTNERSS!!
MY ABANG AND MAKKK~
AND OF COURSE KAKA!!
AND MANNY MOREE
THANKS FOR GIVING ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO JOIN THE STARBUCKS FAMILY~
IT IS REALLY A GREAT HONOR AND FUNN=))

YEAPPP!!
I KNOW THERE ARE ALOT MORE TO BE POSTED~
BUT TIME IS RUNNING AWAY FROM ME AND MY BAD IS CALLING ME~
GOT TO GOOO~
LOVE  YOU PEOPLEE!
2009 IS A REALL BUSY YEARRR FOR MEE BUT IT IS ONE OF MY AWESOME AWESOMEST YEAR BECAUSE I HAD YOU PEOPLE!!
LOVESSS!!

To that friend of mine..
I dont know whether you read my blog or not..
but still I am going to dedicate this post to you..

Firstly, I feel so baddd not to be there when you have to face that big big decision of yours..
I may not be the one that you will run to and pour your sorrows,
but stilll i am assured that you can be alright as I know you know who to run to.

I just wanna say that when I see you,
I always tell myself that people can be happy not in a normal way.
You seems to break the social norms around me..
and stilll living stronger than anyone elsee..
You always seems to go through the narrow way,
and that always remind me to always walk that way too!
Not that we want to suffer, but we believe that there are always something after that deep and narrow way waiting for us..
something good!=)

To me, you are awesome and strong..
you never fails to put others in front of you..
Thank God that I met you even though our impressions of one another at 1st aint good at all..
Reallly.. like i cannot express how grateful I am..

Just want to say that..
You live with your decision..
I believe that you know what is best for you..
I will keep you in my prayers..
Just want to say to you..
that friend of mine..
stay strong(like how you always tell me when I had my own obstacles..)
and I LOVE YOU!

 

Oh yea right!! I seriously need that above "TO DO LIST"

I realised that my sentence structure and my style of writing is really going way off!!
you know wad?? I have to write and I need to keep on writing!!
YES!! PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!!
wadever it is! I seriously need to do somrthing about it!

I htink that this week is really going to be hectic for me!! SERIOUSLY!!
I worked 5days for this week and the other 2 days were taken up for XMAS CELEBRATION and Belle's shooting!!
ZOMGGG!! I CANN REALLY COUNT THE NUMBER OF HOURS I HAD SPENT IN MY COZY LITTLE ROOM!!
THE AMOUNT OF TIME SPENT AT HOME IS REALLLL PATHETIC!!
WAHHHH!! I dont feel like a holiday at all!!
despite the fact that i do not have to worry about waking up late for school!! stilll!!
i didnt really manage to sleep well at night either!!
I had my contact lens on for 2DAYS W/O TAKING IT OUT!!!
and my store always had freaking slams!!!
IT IS REALL FREAKYY ALRIGHT???
LIKE I AM SO DISGUSTED WHEN I SEE CROWDED PLACE NOWWW!!
REALLLYY!!

Anyways, had a great time with my earthlings celebrating XMAS!!
I really hope that the XMAS mood can actually last longer!!
 

aww~back from harbourfront=))
Am so glad we went to the starbucks there~
what a nice environment to chill and study=))

Cannot wait for wednesday to come!! like now!!
RIGHT NOW!! WANNA GO THERE AGAIN=))

By the way, had my media writing test today~
zomgg!! i think i am really crapping all the way!!

my captions,
FUGU, THE FISH U DONT WANNA MESS AROUND WITH?!?
THE DEADLY VENOM,__________
Toxins has its irony!!

zomggg!! it is like so achibalan!!!

and my slogan for the feature writing!~
U DONT HAVE TO SEE TO SAVE THE SEA!
YES!! I KNOW!! LAUGH LAUGH!! LAUGH ALL U WANT!!
cos i find it pretty funny after i hand in my paper~
hhahaah!!

OH YEA! and START for it to LAST!
not bad huh?? i think that is the only good one~
blehs~ wadever~

here are some pics=))

zomggg!! I LOVE the marcaroni!! LIKE MARCARONISSSS!!! I have to eat some marcaroni in school tmr!! like a seriously!!!

AWWW~~The donutss!!! i jus cannot get enough all these!!
they were like sooo yummilicious!!

I cannot wait for my holidays to come=))
like seriously! KL trip will be a stress takeaway trip=)
Sighs~ but after that, I know that my manager is really like gng to make me work=(
My store had decided to go 24/7 on fri and sat! and i seriously hope that i wont be on that shift!
zomgg!! 1 PARTNER AND 1 MANAGER!!
How to survive?

I seriously like miss everyone!
I think i need to meet vic and belle really badly!
I need to meet my E37B really badly for seafood!! haha!!
ooh! i just miss the seafood and the buns!! so yummilicious!!
need a shopping trip with yulenda!! zomg!! that girl!! she better dont forget me mann!!
and lasty, my DIVING LICENSE!!
AFTER THAT, KOREAN CLASS!!
I SERIOUSLY NEED TO BRUSH UP ON MY 한국어!!=((

LIKE WAHH!!

SOOOO MANY THINGS TO DO BUT YET SO LITTLE TIME AND KACHING!!
I NEED TO SAVE!!
BIG TIME!!

oh yea! my tuition kid actually got an A for her chinese!!
IT IS REALLY LIKE WOOOO!!
SHE MADE IT!! LIKE WHOA~ A MAN!!=))
KEKEKEKE!!

I just wanna find a place that is like gardenie..with rich green patches of grass...and a whole field of flowers!!
and wahh!! seriously! I think my vocab is really deteriorating!!

CANNOT!! AHHH!!

Just came across this video and decided to dedicate to all my lovelies out there=))

You guys know who you are=))
They say that true love never dies..
and I really pray that we will be friends as long as this world is turning.


I think..
because the passion we had..
the love and encouragement we had showered upon one another..
it just keeps me moving=))
And when I feel weary and lost..I will cling on to the prayers we had for one another=))
LOVES!

Dont forget that as much as your are there for me, I want to be there for you guys!
Yea?!?!

I may not be able to do much but at least your can pour out all your craps and rubbish to this "rubbish bin" of yours=))

Well O Wells!!
Went to meet him before I went to meet mummy for shoppin..shhh!!
Although we barely had 5 minutes?!!?!? but still, we were very glad that we met=)
That achibalan fall sick today!! makes me ponder should I skip school halfway and visit him then go work or wad??
*sighs* worried much!

ahhhh~worried worried worried!!

Anyways, went to shop shop with mummy at Haji Lane=)
Glad that she like the place=)
Here are some pics..

Hais..i think there is a huge difference!! hahhaha!! my mum is pretty right?? i know!!

My mum wanna go back there once again..so is good=))

HEY PEEPOS!
I know that it has been a loong long time since I update..
and TADA!! HERE I AM=))

Here are some of the pics I had taken wiht my new classmates=))




Okie..now more about myself=))



=))
Happy much lately=))
Even dancing under the starless night can make me feel so blessed=))
loves!!

I have been very very drained from all the work and school stuffs..
Cannot wait for the hols=))
I miss church!!
I miss miaomiao!!
I miss VIC & BELLE!!
I miss Yulenda!!
I miss my E37B!!
AHHH!! I MISS EVERYONE!!
I WANNA MEET UP WITH EVERYONE LIKE A ASAP!!

 





Hey peeps!!
I am back again~
ahhh..had been rather busy  nowadays..
UT just started and i seriously dont know when my bar test will be conducted..
Work has been okie..bit too bad but not very good too..
need some time to adapt=)

recently, had been hanging out with mud they all and seriously have to say that they are a great company..
hahs!!
I must say that even though i get restless and unmotivated, you people are the driving force yeah??
LOVES!!

To mud,
i know that you are freaking busy and tired, but still i really appreciate the effort that you took to join us=)
thank you thank you thank you!!
hees..


To my sistas and one brother!!
hahahahahah!! Thank you so much for ur advices and i seriously love u all!!
we got to meet up more often yea??
loves!!

I am getting more and more lazy every now and then=(
I dont know am i tired or just plain lazy..
anyways, i just wanna have my holidays!!
that's all=)

P.S: I MISS MY E37B!!

I realised something today..
the more i tell myself aint going to do sth, the more i am gng to do it..
that totally stinks.

I did something really embarassing and i really pinky swear that i wont do that again!
never ever again.

I always thought that i am that far..
but no i am not..
i mean not in terms of knowledge...
anyways, i am going to move on and move on!

yeap!
I may be like a kid crawling out from those stinky bins and gasping for some fresh air..
At the same time, wondering what i can get to see frm out there..

and seriously, i know i can shut up, so i better do it at the right time..

btw, my current class aint that bad actually..
need some more time together=)

and btw, my freaking earpiece SPOIL!!
WAHH!! MY BRO AND MINE BROWKE DOWN AT THE SAME TIME!!
IT IS SO OH MY TIAN!!

When you say you want to be a strong person, it means that you had not been one.
seriously..i realised today.

I hope that I can wave goodbye to october and welcome my november asap!!

As time is ticking away, tears are trickling..
after those tears, a decision will be made,
and i wanna congratulate myself for seeing another intolerable side of humane.
But at the same time,
grateful to those poeple who are willing to be my listening ears to those craps that i had went through and those that I had rattled on and onbr />Thanks for staying there with me=)
You guys know who you are. LOVES=)

As people's backs turn towards you,
i think it is alright to turn yours back at theirs tooo..
what is the point of making someone ur priority when you are just an option?!?!
Trust me! I will run with the wind! Where it will takes me to!
 
TO THOSE WHO CANNOT(dont know how to and yet act like a PRO!!) TREASURE FRIENDSHIP, I AM GOONA SAY THESE:

IN YOUR FACE! STOP PUSHING PEOPLE AROUND LIKE YOU ARE THE BOSS!
STOP YOUR NONSENSE AS PEOPLE..NO NOT PEOPLE! YOUR SO-CALLED FRIENDS
HAD ENOUGH OF IT! SO JUST JUST SHUT UP AND GET YOUR THINGS DONE!
STOP BEING A WANNABE! IF YOU REALLY WANNA BE ONE..BE ONE!
DONT ACT LIKE YOU DONT WANT TO BE ONE AND BE ONE!
IT IS LIKE A MAJOR TURN-OFF AND IT REALLY MAKES ME NAUSEOUS!
CUT OFF YOUR ACT!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!

Yes! everything will be better and i believe in this way..
i have to think like that, or else..
that's it!

I had a conversation with one of my friends regarding about..past.
He made a statement " my past makes me like that "

I think that what was in the past remains as a past..
it is our own decision whether to bring our past to present.
I know it is easier to be said than to be done..but still, it is our own choice..

I think that our past is not really that important..
BUT what is really important is what we bring from the past.
Yea..to me, THAT is important.

I always tell myself that..
whatever kind of situaitions or connections you had with someone is more than a coincidence..
thus, i am going through all these with a reason and purpose..

It maybe a pleasant or unpleasant one..
but, i wanna stay strong and move on from where i am..

Tears may still fall when we think of our past..
but after all those trials and tribulations,
we've survived. and that is what we can celebrate man.
most importantly, dont lose that priceless smile of yours.
cos you know that nth can buy that!!
and i aint gonna lose that!!

and VIPPY told my class sth last fri which i find it really useful=)
"It is okie to make mistakes, as long as it is your decision"
&
"I am who i am not yet"

Making a mistake is a big deal..to me.
but as long as i learnt from it..and i know it is my decision..
it is ok.
Just dont repeat it.

I am fully convinced by that..
we cant really predict the 20 years later of us..
it is kinda impossible...
because as the world is spinning, we humans are changing..

thus, dont be too taken aback when your "friend" changes to  a "stranger".
Remember as your friend changes, you change too!!

The very 1st latte that I had made!!=)
The foam actually formed up a love shape like unknowingly~
I didnt do that like deliberately..cool right?? hahahah!! i know=)

Anyways, had a great meet-up with Cherrie=)
Glad to know that she is still doing fine=)
and like usual, we left the place with lots of dilemma..
or maybe just me!! hahahah!!
i want so many things!! zomg!! *KA CHING*
and yeap! some pics tgt..

Hahaha!! I seriously think that my eyes are like small to the max!!
That is why i wanna have one that is uber big=) smiles=)

Oh yea!
Liyee passed me my bdae present (i know it is really belated)
but still appreciated much!! =)
Like what she said, I really think she is like collecting a series of pens for me!!
HAHAHAH!! but all those came in handy=)

She bought me a mask and i really laugh at her thoughts!
She bought me a mask with korean lang directions!
NO ENGLISH AT ALL!!
HAHAHAH!! AND IT IS REALLY THE WHOLE BIG PIECE OF INFO IN KOR.
HAHAHHA!! LET ME SHOW U PPL!!

I DONT UNDERSTAND!!! 어떻게?!??! ("How" in kor )
HAHAHAH!! anyways, she made my day with all those lovely gifts=)
LOVES=)


 

 

With the same backpack that I throw on to kick off my day every morning,
I cant wait to dump it down the floor where I first picked up from.
EXHAUSTED.SWOLLEN EYES.COMPLICATION!

I felt like I was being slammed down on the crosssroad of my life.

With this new sem, God never stop to show me the way how life works..
CHANGE! not just me..but everything arnd me changes as times goes by..
Be it surroundings or people..yeap..everything changes..

I hate the fact that this word CHANGE exisit in my life...
and will stick with me like a uber super glue that i cant detach it!
wad is this?!?!

Aint feeling any better after my trip from thailand=(
I am like still sick and getting sentimental..but not as bad as b4..
I think that I had lose alot of weight..
I cant finish my food because my stomach aint doing me any good..
You can say that I barely had a proper meal every day..
People who dont know may thought that I am on a diet!!
Furthermore, my bio clock is in a mess!
I cant slp at night..only in the morn..
*sighs*

I just pray that October can come real fast...
I really want all these to end like as fast as possible..
They may not know but it is real hard for me to bear..
Those idiots!

P.S: Thanks Bry for ur "cheerupz"=)
thank you so much!!! At least I know that you care=)

After 11 days in Thailand,
I hope that I can move on as before~
But it seems that I cant..
It seems like I forgot to bring my heart back and thus,
there's no heartbeat here..

I am like trying to stop talking about my trip..
cos it will totally make me sentimental and bring me to a melancholy state..
I am not ready for the busi-ness suddenly..totally not prepared..
I cant resume to my norm self...
I find it so hard and so are my team members..
were texting mud and joey like no body's business just now~
OHMYGOSH!! I MISS ALL OF THEM!!
I am missing H.O.P.E..and most of all Mirror Foundation's staffs..
The villagers that had received us so well and so were the kids..
The people there really makes me so welcomed in that foreign land..
They will be remembered man..

Truly regret that I cannot do more for them during the trip because of reservations in mind!!
DAMN IT!!

Feeling damn depressed right now..
The feeling felt worse than anything..I think..

I wanna keep strolling under those stars that light up my path in the village..
Maybe I wanna move on from there..
It may seem dim though, but the love from everywhere will totally lit up your whole path..
and it will eventually bring you home..

The nature that can live without us will be remembered..
I dont even wanna slp on the last day of touring..
worrying that I will miss anything..
afraid that I cant embrace anything of that sort when I come back..
No..it is I cant even find anything here as nature..like anymore
Everything look so artificial here..

Tears were running like crazy yesterday and so was just now..
and  I am wondering when will it stop..
I am not sure if I am able to stop thinking of those moments for a day or even a while every now and then..
How can I stop playing back those moments that brought me more than happiness..
Those moments that we had shared will be locked in a corner of heart and aint going away...

Those things that I had witnessed and had been through will be like a tattoo..
cant be removed..

I wanna go back so badly..
Like i am ready to pack my bag and go NOW!


I never know that I am so attached to that land itself..
Nothing seems to be able to make me feel better...
Not even any korean news or any of my favourite songs..
I dont feel like doing anything and going anywhere now..
Dont even wanna contact anyone~
Dont even wanna celebrate my birthday!
That is how bad my situation now~

I am feeling so overwhelmed and depressing now~
I need some time alone i think..
Thought that I wont be in this state
but were a huge mistake...
HATE SEPARATIONS!!

Damn..I wanna move on..
Worst still..I know that I have to..
But i aint man..

TO E37B:
Under the sunset and ringing sound of waves,
we can still dance even if it is a cloudy day..
Because there is still you and me=)


Although it may seems like we are having the last day together, but we know that we have many more yet to come=)


AHBEBE just told me something just now..

"Life is all about suspense"-SHUAIB

OH MAN!! quite true huh?!?!
We dont really know what to expect for tmr??
SHUAIB!! THE GURU OF QUOTES!!
KEEP IN CONTACT YEA?!?!
HAHAHAH!!

OH YEA!! HE WROTE SOMETHING FOR ALL OUR CLASSMATES THROUGH MSN!!
AND HERE IS MINE:

it was really nice being ur classmate..even though u were small and innocent, Thr were many things i learnt from u..patience.. care..concern.. sm othr stuffs...(hehe secret)..hmm..shud i say u are de light bulb of the class??haha.. I neva met such a girl befre .. You are the first gal can really make me laugh my ass off..your smile..ur innocence..is really unique.. hehe.. And ya.. Sry if i had done or said anything wrng that might hv hurt ur feelings or sth..really dint mean to.. but ws jking.. Being ur class mate was really fun aft all..Thanks for all the laughther u gave in class. it will be forever cherished..Thanks. and finally.. i wud like to say sth..If you have two friends in your lifetime, you're lucky. If you have one good friend, you're more than lucky..Like wad u said..will alwys kp in touch..

 
*TOUCHED!!!*

I really wanna tell all my loves(all of E37B) for letting me know the joy I had brought to u ppl..i realy didnt know that I can do that=)
THANKS PEEPOS!! U GUYS WERE REALLY AWESOME!!

THANKS JAN AND SYAFIQ(OMG!! DIDNT KNOW U WILL PEN DOWN SOME STUFFS FOR THE CLASS!!)

AND HAPPY BDAE AH CAI AH!! HAHAHAHHAH!!
WILL MISS U TOO!!=)

HERE TO UR AGAIN..
사랑해 그리고 고마워!!
(I love you and Thanks)
 

Dont you guys think that when we know there is sth that is only one in the whole world, we tend to cherish it more than anyone else?!?!
Especially those limited edition materials!! ZOMG!!
People can really just throw big bucks to add to their list of collection..

Something struck me..like just now~
Dont your realise that YOU YOURSELF IS ONLY ONE IN THE WHOLE WORLD!?!?
Someone may look like you,think like you and act like you..
But there is one thing in you that will never be the same as others..
Your heart=)

Our heart is just like an apple..
Once someone chomps it down, you can never have it back~
Dont give your heart away just like that man!!
WHAT A WASTE IF IT ENDED UP IN A BEAST'S HAND!!
IMAGINE YOUR PRINCE HAVE TO CONTINUE CHOMPIN DOWN AN EATEN APPLE~
EWWWW~~ It will never taste as yummilicious as the first bite man~
NEVER~

We can choose who to give and who not to~
Love it like no one else, we are priceless..the one and only in the world~
 
 

Went for diving trip briefing sesson..
am so exicited for the trip!=)
ELLE LOOK SO GORGEOUS TODAY!!!

Anyways, goona really take this UT3 seriously..
AFTER TT,HOHOHOO!!
GONNA have movie marathon, Thai Trip and WORK!!
yes!! I am gonna like recharge aft all the trips and stuff!!
HEH HEH!!

Solitary may not be a bad thing after all..
It may seems like a real loner..
but it is not afterall!
As long as you are comfortable with urself=)

LOVE MY E37B!!
U GUYS ARE UBER AWESOME PPL!!
HEARTS U ALL!!

Off to tuition!!